I don't know enough about anything (other than technology) to form any kind of opinion. I don't know what end is up. I just got engaged and I love my fiance, but I think I love his best friend more. And that's the kicker - I think I love tom more, and love isn't about thinking, is it? I'm a person already married to logic, so I'm trying to work through the thinking process about this, and of course I keep hitting a wall. A true romantic would probably just say fuck it, follow heart and leave the fiance for the friend. Follow your heart, or lust. Ah-ha - and does tom return my affections? Don't know - I suspect so, but what does that mean? Is suspicion a feeling or a thought process? And it's confusing - they both live in another state. If I didn't love my fiance, I don't think I'd stay loyal - but I do, and he's a wonderful guy. What'll I do? Probably nothing - and as usual, no one else will ever be the wiser. Katharine Hepburn had a phrase that I love - "Not everyone is lucky enough to understand how delicious it is to suffer." :)

Wow - I like "The Tipping Point" - I think he works in my organization. ;)

Malcolm Gladwell, author of "The Tipping Point," that talent may, in fact, be overrated — and substantially overcompensated. Gladwell pondered, "What if some companies fail not for lack of a Talent Mindset, but because of it." Gladwell’s argument stems not from the belief that strong performers are not valuable to organizations, but rather that most companies typically do a very poor job at accurately identifying and assessing the best talent. Because they often fail in their assessment, significant differentiation in compensation and recognition is ultimately random, and often detrimental. According to Gladwell, distributing highly unbalanced rewards to employees based on imprecise assessments of their relative level of talent is a recipe for disaster.

Yup, this has been on my long lost list of things to do. Hmm. Well, it's a start. Hopefully this will be a way to brain-dump all my banal yet repetitive over-thoughts. Kind of like a mental fire-sale.

Wouldn't this be fodder for a stalker? Like if they secretly knew who you were and could follow every random thought you had (or at least posted.) Hmm...

A lot of keeping this is to find out what blogging is about and how I can use it in different aspects of my life and maybe my job.

As an info-techie, I've seen research on blogs before, but my god. "Web Fire Escape"? To keep you from getting fired for blogging? I know some places of work are draconian, but I'm surprised that people would blog so much at work that they'd be in danger of loosing their job over it. I think I'd rather just not.

There was also an article in the setup of this thing that talked about a guy that got fired for something he posted in a blog that his employer didn't like. I wonder how much people bitch and moan about work in these things. Is that all they do? I probably would / will myself. Maybe this is the new era equivalent of a bar, but without alcohol and a lot more folks than those to your right or left to "hear" your troubles.

A journal to keep your thoughts...I've kept various "though-books" over the years, but the idea of daily journaling just isn't something I can keep up, because I don't really like to write! But I do wish I could go back and recapture some of the memories that have escaped me when I never did write anything down. What few glimpses of earlier times in mmy life have surprised and delighted me - it's fascinating to see what I'd written on some random day years ago, what my mood and frame of mind was. I came across old folders in an email account recently that I hadn't looked at in years. It was like something that belonged to someone else's ghost!

So - I really like Caleb Carr. I've read "The Alienist" and I'm hoping to jump into "The Angel of Darkness" soon. A lot of times, weirdly, when I'm about to delve into a book, I'll have the overwhelming desire to research the author or subject or time-frame (call me a librarian). So, it's been like ten years since I read Alienist and I wanted to know a little more about Carr. I looked up some interviews and found a pretty good one on salon.com. It turns out he's a miltary history expert (big surprise) which rings with me because of the weird government/military town I grew up in. In another interview it was interesting that he mentioned James Forrestal who as Secretary of Defense in the 1940's and supposedly instrumental in starting the CIA, although Forrestal lost his mind and committed suicide in 1947.